Can't Sleep

Architects never sleep.

Lately before bed my pre-work arguments have been occurring, which is odd, b/c normally I am so intent on getting to bed, so upset that I have to wake to work that I just go to bed.
Normally I have a hundred characters, fiction and non-fictitious, running around my head and so I just lie in bed relatively calm until I nod off.
Tonight things want to be resolved, real and unreal things. Circumstances real and imagined.

The following is an occurrence that is common when the scenario arises...
On the occasion that I wake early for an eight a.m. start. I move around my house getting ready; eating, brushing teeth, reading and generally mentally preparing myself for the outside world. I do those things mechanically while my depression and my depression on medication are having a huge discussion, a Woody Allen-esque dialog. I patiently let both arguments run their courses, then sit back, down my strong tea and stare off into a daily eternity lost deep behind my indiscriminate eyes.
In the back of my head there are still two muttering people shuffling about, one has decided to go to work, one to stay home, they are both brooding and slamming doors. It's an undecided and awkward environment, like anyone would be in real life if that if that was happening where you live.so on time or slightly late I then force the morning bell jar off and remove myself from the house.

The night-time is more aggressive, and aggravating. The best way to go to bed is oblivious with no set time for waking, not this way.


I might try to blog a bit. I don't know, I just couldn't choose what to do right now, waiting for shut eye.